Forever Friend

I often tend to think that every battle I go through is one I can fight on my own. My reasoning? Well it’s just always how things played out for me; either no one stuck around long enough to help out when things got bad, or I did the whole self-sabotage thing where I push people away before they prove they can handle my crap. So, in this song, I make up this character. Someone who’s always there for me even when I push away, and who can talk with me when I don’t even have words to say. The whole time writing the song I thought I didn’t have someone like this, and boy let me tell you, I was so wrong! I have amazing friends, and family, and friends who have become family. I hate that I was so blind to it, but I love that I’ve always had it. I love them, and I know I don’t say it all the time… but I definitely should start. The “Forever Friend” I wanted, turned into my forever friends. And you guys know who you are, so uh, thank you and all that :)

“You can do your best

Show that you do care

Get up out of bed

Comb the knots out of your hair

Even in the end

You know you’ll need a friend

Don’t push away too soon

Just to move from deeper views

Get that image out your head

So afraid of what’s unsaid

Yes in the end you’ll see

You need more than me myself and I

That’s not a good way to fight, I’ve tried

You can try to distract yourself from the demons inside

You can try your shot at a normal life

Deep down you know

You wouldn’t have it any other way

Why change

At least this way you know

How the story will go

Yet you also know

If you could change the end

Write up a perfect friend

One who’d stay till the end

A forever friend

All the heartache

All the fear

Bring someone to take me from here

I can’t change I can’t remove the pain

Add a new light to keep me sane

You would walk around

All day and night

Talk about those endless fights

Yeah your forever friend would stay by your side

Hold your hand in his or hers

Walk a mile to take away the hurt

All the heartache

All the fear

Bring someone to take me from here

I can’t change I can’t remove the pain

Add a new light to keep me sane

So take it from me

If you change your story

Really change your story

Write up a new beginning never see the end

With your forever friend

Change the ways of me myself and I

Now you know its not an easy way to fight

You’ve got that inside

Yet of course you still tried

Letting go of all those fights

Moving on to being fine

Silence falls within your mind

You’ve got help to re-route your life”