Plated Metal

I don’t want people to listen to this song and think I wrote it with the intention to only say “F-YOU” to that one person that manipulated me… because it’s a lot more than that. There is a whole backstory I could go into for every little communication that happened for this song to be born. However, the last thing I want is to call out someone that, once upon a time, I did still have good moments with. So here’s a summed up version of the story; you can give everything you have to a person, and I mean EVERYTHING. Love, care, support; but sometimes that’s just never enough, and it can be taken for granted. In the end of course I did lose this person, and for the longest time I blamed myself, I thought I let them down. When really, now that I look back, it was never my problem to solve. I was giving so much of my time and effort into this person, I forgot to do that for me. So now, yeah, I am so NOT sorry for leaving a toxic friendship. I deserved better, and I knew that all along. I thank you “person”, for bringing out the realization!

Woke up in the dead of night

Not quite sure why

But you were calling me

My old friend from back when we were fifteen

You were crying hysterically

Said you really needed me

I was on my way naturally

And this is what you said to me

I am so sorry

We left things super foggy

Everyone has left me

Tell me you’ll stay with me

Please

Back and forth I’m counting

Don’t know if this will be lasting

Constantly hesitating

Before I follow you back into your place again

Holding on to everything that’s gold

Pretending that I don’t know

Its just plated metal painted in yellow

I wish I could let go

Walk up to me as if you know me

As if you own me

And this is what you’ll say to me

I am so sorry

We left things super foggy

Everyone has left me

Tell me you’ll stay with me

Please

I am not sorry

We left things super foggy

You’re the one who scared me

I’m walking away don’t stop me

I am not sorry

We things super foggy

You’re the one who left me

Im walking away don’t stop me

Against everything I stand for

Against my morals and my locked doors

I follow you

Like a damn fool”